555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 38

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 38.
Time Awake: 11:11 a.m.
If you know me, you know that I don’t want any children of my own. In fact, I don’t like most children at all. Loud, obnoxious, irritating, poorly raised… and I want no part of it.
There are exceptions of course. My niece and nephew are the best children in the world. This is partially because they are my niece and nephew. This is also because they remind me of my own childhood via the awareness and wonder they exhibit. There are six years between them, so I get to be a part of the spectrum of their experiences.
I also really enjoy having them around.
There are other children I’ve met who exhibit similar wonderment and are enjoyable to be around. So not all children are horrible. Just most of them. Hah!

Paddington Bear, a remnant of my childhood.

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 36

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 36.
Time Awake: 11:22 a.m.
When more than one person, who have no relation or association in Life besides being people you know, tell you the same thing, it’s worth listening to and considering.
Multiple people have told me recently that I wear my heart on my sleeve.
I do.
I haven’t always done this. For most of my Life, I have been walled up Mike, relating nothing about myself, being steely and generally unpleasant to be around.
Then that changed while I was doing my “365 Days of Gratitude” project, which ended back in November. In the process of this project, I learned to be open, authentic and, yes, wear my heart on my sleeve.
Now I’ll tell you exactly what I think, exactly how I feel. I’ll plop my heart down right in front of you. No bullshit.
And I’m happier living this way. So if you meet and interact with me, be prepared. I’m wearing my heart on my sleeve.

No wine, guess I’ll drink the canned corn. Sigh.

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 35

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 35.
Time Awake: 9:47 a.m.
This is the process by which people of adult age engage in activities that they would likely rather not be doing. This can be working, paying bills and other unfulfilling actions.
And that’s okay. Because we’re adults. We know we have responsibilities. And we take care of those responsibilities. By adulting.
I just finished adulting for the day. I’m beat. And that’s okay too. As soon as I finish publishing this, I’m going to engage in a recovery meditation that involves me putting my head on my pillow and knocking out.
Can’t wait.

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 34

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 34.
Time Awake: 10:51 a.m.
What is meant by “merely existing” or to “merely exist”?
We are merely existing when we follow the same routine every day, day in and day out, with no change, no alteration. Nothing new. Nothing exciting. Nothing even slightly different.
We merely exist in a situation with a thing, experience or person that isn’t working any longer. We stick with it for nostalgia’s sake, or because we invested so much time in it, or because we have such fond memories of good times. So we hang out. And keep hanging out. Merely existing. While time floats on by.
We are merely existing when we aren’t following our passions, living as our hearts cry out to to.
I spent a great deal of my Lifetime merely existing. Never again. Come on, Life, bring it on. Whatever you throw at me, I’ll take it and LIVE the experience.

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 33

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 33.
Time Awake: 9:39 a.m.
The Universe provides.
It may not be in ways we expect. The Universe gives us the signs along the way and we either see them or get really surprised as things happen.
We always get what we need. We never get more than we can deal with.
The Universe provides.

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 32

555 Days Towards Level 9000: Day 32.
Time Awake: 10:47 a.m.
“Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering.” Master Yoda taught us this. And he is right.
But sometimes anger just seethes. Sometimes anger is just seeing red. In those cases, we aren’t necessarily turning to the Dark Side. But we are in need of channeling the anger appropriately.
So what to do? What did I do? Find an outlet for the anger. Get productive. Make shit happen. Do something that doesn’t involve pushing over old people or kicking parked cars or throwing Frisbees at unsuspecting folks.
None of those outlets would have deserved those actions. But doing something for yourself, taking the energy involved in the anger and using it for an actual output, now that’s appropriate use.
We get angry sometimes. But it’s not bad. It doesn’t fit into a Light Side/Dark Side dichotomy. Anyway, it’s not about the light or the dark; Life is the Gray, which I will espouse upon for another entry.
Allow yourself to be angry when needed. But be productive with your energy. And notice yourself calming to your equilibrium in the process.